Wish I could share all my tears/
I'm down and out..I'll keep it moving/
And try to get out/
I don't know how to move on/
Where I went wrong/
Wish I could live with no fears/
I'm so down and out...I'll keep on moving/
And try to get out/
Somehow...../
Diary - Wale ft. Marsha Ambrosius
How do you want me?
May I ask…I choose to let go…from which something you choose the grasp
If it’s your idea of a test…there’s no possible way to pass
If the resentment in your heart towards me…preserves to last
You choose to tell me…how I feel about the past
But unless you’re in my head….how dare you walk that path
You don’t know how many times…I sat sleepless in my bed
And how that same bad decision…torments me in my head
But what can I do?
Nothing I say will make it right
So I chose to find a way….to make it through the night
I don’t claim to know what you’re going through…but you choose to play the victim
Our misery is a sickness…but I choose to ignore the symptoms
Am I wrong…somehow I neglected to see the signs
I’m trying to press forward….but your thoughts are on rewind
You’re lashing out at me…as if it’s something I shouldn’t speak on
The fact that we defer…is the only thing that we agree on
And never would I fault you…for not being the same
But I choose to not dwell on…the things that I couldn’t change
As a man…I can only empathize with the pain that you have dealt with
And my apology wouldn’t help it…so in turn I remain helpless
So instead you take aim…I choose to take blame
How from crying could you refrain….if and still you feel the pain
Partly insane….against my will I feel the same
No part of my neo soul…would stop these bullets of my shame
And even now I’m left with questions from your intentions
If the smallest parts of your stomach turn…when my name is merely mentioned
If every whisper and glimpse of me…holds a level of discontent
Then why subject yourself to such anguish…by presenting yourself in my presence
I pray that God mends the wounds…that I myself wish I could
That any doctor should…and eventually time would
At least I hope so….
To be 100% honest I don’t know
So I jot down all the pain…that you claim I don’t show
In turn....your own emotions have divided and conquered your better being
Thus leaving me behind enemy lines…unable to find a new alliance worth believing
A new happiness worth receiving…blocked by your now sarcastic overtone
Possible reasons why…no matter who you align with…you still feel so alone
And the seclusion that you cling to...is only a temporary fix to a more serious problem
One that if not addressed…can continually fester without solving
If the negativity in your heart…finds an origin in me
Then I suggest you move on…though it may lack in simplicity
I say that realistically…if you can’t find solace in forgiving me
Then just maybe in forgetting me…your heart will find tranquility
I’ll let it live…if you let it be…I only pray for your peace of mind
And if our paths never again intertwine…I’ll settle for peace in mine
Your life….my love….your happiness to lose
My heart…your peace…no longer my choice….you choose -
Syncere
To Her: to be honest i wish we ended on a better note...but i honestly don't know what else i can do...it seems like you wanna continue to beat me as well as yourself up about something that happened in the past...i swear on everything that i could change my decision that day but i cant...nor can you...so i find that dwelling on it...only makes you miserable...i pray that eventually you'll be able to look in the mirror without hating the person thats staring back at you...and i know thats easier said than done...but i truly pray that you find a way because if not you'll never be happy...alone...or with anybody else....it may seem like it doesn't bother me on the outside...but truthfully i fight with it everyday....but i can't nor will i let that dictate my future...instead i choose to take it as a lesson learned...and i pray that you'll one day be able to do the same...i would never ask you to forget that situation...because i don't think i ever will...i can even live with the fact that you cant forgive me...but i do hope you find it in your heart to forgive yourself....this world has too many haters already...so it doesn't help for you to hate yourself...i remember telling you to remove the negativity from your heart...and i truthfully mean that....even if its me....i don't wanna think like this...but if i'm the source of all your pain....than i suggest you cut me off...i never would want to have a negative effect on anybody especially you....in the end i just want you to be happy...with or without me in the picture...i still love you...and i always will - Syncere
