Narcissistic...

A mirror, an image, a reflection.....A sense of greatness, the ultimate perfection. A sense of self, a worth so overwhelmed. A crown for kings, and for warriors a helm. To be desired, to be loved...to be held so high. Consumed by oneself without a wonder why. Pride, conceit, arrogance, egotistic in short vanity. One who lacks the ability to cure himself of selfish insanity.....Let's travel back a memory to the story of a man, who fell in love with his own reflection and died at his own hand. A greater beauty than himself he had never known, but never allowing others to love him the same....so as a result it was never shown.....In times we all display the same...thinking so less of others we dare them to speak our names. But name just one who is better than me....NO ONE...unless it begins with an capital G and ends with almighty. Life can get so lonely in solitaire...especially when you're lost in the thought that you don't need for anyone else there. Am I vane??? Do I find my self beautiful??? Let me be the first to answer the question...I'm in love with myself for who I am the way I look is only a SUGGESTION. Narcissistic....like the demon who was cast out of heaven because he thought his place was on the throne. To forever rot and burn on the coals of hell...destitute from the eyes of any beholder....surrounded by those like him...still lost...still alone. Narcissistic like Joan of Arc, the woman who fought in God's name....and never realized her fight and her ego was all the same. Narcissistic like Hitler, one loss to the devices of his selfish being. Unable to love others due to a difference but maybe it was more like self loathing and he never grasped the meaning. Narcissistic like Cain who thought he was "Able" to best his brother by ending his life. Narcissistic like Eve who thought a bite of an apple would give her the power to be like GOD....and so Adam suffered due the shortcomings of his Narcissistic wife. Narcissistic self indulgence, condescension, pomposity....the consumption of another's self worth....belligerence due to lack of completeness...never knowing there is no one, just situations...more greater than the other here, in this world...on this earth. Now Syn....You know you're wayyyyy past due! so you gotta post 2! lol...and HURRY!

Graduation - Kanye West

01. Good Morning (Intro) 03:15 02. Champion 02:48 03. Stronger 05:12 04. I Wonder 04:03 05. Good Life (Ft. T-Pain) 03:27 06. Can't Tell Me Nothing 04:32 07. Barry Bonds (Ft. Lil Wayne) 03:24 08. Drunk And Hot Girls (Ft. Mos Def) 05:13 09. Flashing Lights (Ft. Dwele) 03:58 10. Everything I Am 03:48 11. The Glory 03:33 12. Homecoming (Ft. Chris Martin) 03:24 13. Big Brother 04:47

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You got it bad, well anit that "too" sad.

"They say you always want what you can't have".

Always reaching for something you can't grab.

Now you call yourself having an attitude with me over some dude.

Well isn't that just rude.

Considering you are the type of girl who doesn't know what you want.

You like front while playing the high school games you play.

To me girl your whole style is lame.

It's ashame because who knows ya could have a true romance.

Now BITCH you don't stand a chance.

Now I'm not the one to get violent,

but don't expect me to be silent for to long

Keep looking at me the wrong way.

I could Fuck up your whole day.

Now that I said what I have to say you have a blessed day.

I'm not crazy but I just had some stuff on my chest that I had to let out. You will be hearing more from me this was just something quick to shut Butta up. SIKE but what you think.

Hustlenomics - Yung Joc

01. Yung Joc - Hustlenomics (Intro) 02:46 02. Yung Joc - Play Your Cards 03:55 03. Yung Joc - Coffee Shop (feat. Gorilla Zoe) 04:02 04. Yung Joc - Bottle Poppin' (feat. Gorilla Zoe) 05:00 05. Yung Joc - Hell Yeah (feat. Diddy) 04:30 06. Yung Joc - Cut Throat (feat. The Game, Jim Jones & Block) 05:25 07. Yung Joc - Hustlemania (Skit) 02:45 08. Yung Joc - I'm A G (feat. Bun B & Young Dro) 04:32 09. Yung Joc - BYOB 03:14 10. Yung Joc - Pak Man 04:16 11. Yung Joc - Getting To Da Money 03:14 (feat. Mike Carlito & Gorilla Zoe) 12. Yung Joc - Brand New (feat. Snoop Dogg & Rick Ross) 05:45 13. Yung Joc - Living The Life (feat. Southerngirl 04:20 14. Yung Joc - Momma (feat. Jazze Pha) 03:53 15. Yung Joc - Chevy Smile 04:28 (feat. Trick Daddy, Block & Jazze Pha) 16. Yung Joc - Hustlenomics 03:06

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The Payback - Omilio Sparks

01. For The Love Or Money 04:00 02. I'm So Down 03:33 03. DJ Turn It Up 04:43 04. Paper Chase 04:45 05. My Lil' Drink 03:42 06. I See U Watchin' Me (feat. J.I.) 04:25 07. Don't Break 03:37 08. The Movement (feat. Nina Ross & A.R.) 04:59 09. The PayBack 03:53 10. Ain't My Fault (Remix) (feat. Peedi Crakk) 04:14 11. Walk Right 02:49 12. Clear 03:45 13. Came From Nothin' 03:27 14. This Is The Life 03:18 15. In The Ghetto (feat. Jah Selah) 03:11 16. Bonus Track 03:24

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Pain & Paper - Lil Mo

01. Intro 02:0002. Official Hollywood (feat. Kat Williams) 04:0103. Sumtimes I (feat. Jim Jones) 03:4904. Heartbeat (feat. Donny Roc) 05:0505. Lucky Her 04:2606. Broken Heart 05:1507. Husband 03:3408. Jus Like That 04:0209. Youngin' (feat. Da Brat) 04:3410. One For The Road 04:2911. I Need You Now 04:0812. How Can I Tell (feat. Heaven) 03:5613. Sexy Pictures (feat. Trina) 04:0714. No Hotel 04:0515. Baby Please 03:4216. Dotted I (I'm Not Perfect) 04:3617. Sumtimes I (Part 2) (feat. Fabolous) 04:09

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Guardian Angel Pt: 1

Guardian Angel: an angel believed to have special care of a particular individual : SAVIOR : PROTECTOR


Lately I’ve been really depressed….down on my luck….wondering why my life is so hard….why everything I do gets fucked…..my jobs no longer present….I’m getting evicted next week….trying to find something worth living for…but the situations getting bleak….bad news?....I can’t take much more…..I shun away from tomorrow….I’d rather make a friend out of Jack Daniels…and drown in my own sorrows…..trying to picture me without the world…..or the world without me here….My final thoughts bleeding on the page…..complimented by my own tears……I reach for the firearm….normally concealed in the closet…no longer aware of my actions….a fifth of Jim Beam behind it……release tension from the safety…..one resides in the chamber….ready to rid myself of the pain….the torment….the anger….I clutch it harder than ever….my forefinger……one with the trigger…..one last image of the world….preparing to remove myself from the picture….my conscious tells me not to….but its too late to be shook….I close my eyes for the final time….after one last look….MY ADRENALINE'S RUSHING.....BLOOD'S PUMPING....FROM A HEART THUMPING QUICK.....THE TRIGGER PULLS AFTER A FINAL FAREWELL....BUT INSTEAD I HEARD.......click…..click…..an eerie silence filled the room….unfamiliar from the exact silence that should have brought upon my doom……with the initial shock faded….tormenting thoughts re-entering my head…..those thoughts and a simple pinch….reassuring me….I wasn’t dead….at the time…you could’ve asked….but I couldn’t explain what I felt……as I stared at the firearm….with unwelcoming results….I ran to the bathroom….with a brand new plan….I decided to use water….to remove myself from the land….there’s more then one way to die….and a way would be found…..and if a bullet wouldn’t do it….then I would definitely drown……I stood in front of the tub…with a reluctant urge…I’d fill up the tub…….until my body was submerged….I turned the dial at the tub…..but absolutely no water spilled….remembering that the utility’s been turned off….cause I couldn’t pay the bill….clearly frustrated….the wall became one with my fist…..approaching my new attempt….a knife meeting my wrist….accepting what’s real…ya’ll should understand my plight….nothing I do works out…I can’t even extinguish my own life….the more simple the execution…the more reluctant I remain….subconsciously thinking about the pain….my insane transcends to sane…..the more I pondered…the more I hesitated….so I decided to make it quick…I slashed at my wrists…..the result of too many horror flicks…what started as a trickle…..has become a steady stream….ending up into a small pool…..I slowly began to dream….forever or so it seemed….I started walking towards the gleam….but the more I walked towards it….the more the space between…..intervened….then suddenly like a beam….my eyes adjusted to a room of white…..possibly the heaven…that resided at the end of that bright light…...my death was well worth it….for this is the place I seek….but then I noticed the tube in my arm….and a annoying replicable beep…..judging from the smell….and faint beat of my heart….I was in the one place…where most human life has been known to start….my mind started to race….trying to solve the unsolved riddle…..who was it that saved me?.....how’d I end up in the hospital….news flash on the TV screen….a picture of my residence….surrounded by flames of fury….the fire apparently evident…..the reporter spoke to a fireman…..the words….”HERO”….was depicted…..explaining how he rescued a body on the second floor….who’s wounds were self-inflicted….though my apartment was no more….I felt a sense of safekeeping….like something truly watched over me….with the full responsibility of my well-being….three times I tried to end my life….and each attempt was altered….no matter what test I threw at him….my angel never faltered….my epiphany’s…..a realization…..that my life is truly hard….but like others…I’ll accept my hand….until life shuffles the cards…..but no matter what I go through…I know that I’m not alone….. I know that he watches over me…..he’s my new comfort zone….before now….I’ve never once….believed in a Guardian Angel….but right then….I looked towards the sky…and whispered a seldom “Thank You”

Guardian Angel:

Three times….his death approached…..three times….his death was altered…..three times…I have been tested….three times I haven’t faltered…..never once have I left him…..I’ve always been by his side…..watching over his every move…removing his setbacks in stride…..he looks up at me….recognizing his Guardian Angel…..a tear departs his eyes….as he whispers a seldom “Thank You”……I ready myself…..for the task life has dealt him…..as I look down towards him….and reply with…….“Your Welcome” - Syn


i apologize for this one being so long but everytime i tried to end it i had more to say......and this is only one of two....so you know that i feel real deep about the subject....anyway hope ya'll enjoyed it....stay up

P.S. Beat that Butter....lol sike naw.....but it is your turn again!