#1 Fan

I would say…that for my mind…..she lives…..proven evident….by the attention…..that she gives….whatever I speak….she hears…..and if my moment of clarity is hidden….then she clears….and that itself is so Syncere…..my interest has evolved for such an individual……and for her….finding a way back to me….has become an unconscious ritual….can no longer picture my being….without her….so I neglect to imagine….and I make it my duty…to keep her entertained….in spite of my absence…..not that I’d leave…but I can’t be around as much as I’d like….and if being in her presence is wrong…than I’m allergic to being right….and I’ve been allergic ever synce…..and if she felt the same…then I’m convinced…and before her…I wasn’t sure of what a #1 Fan meant….a word that seems simple….but yet….still profound…and simple no longer that word….as to how I see it now…..and she lays proof….without a sense of hesitation….in her eyes….lays my flame….fueled by nothing but admiration…..maybe it’s my looks…maybe my swagger…maybe it’s everything that I am….or maybe it doesn’t matter…..but whatever it is….that…it….is….I’m glad that I have it….and whatever feelings I put on the table…..it is she…that’ll grab it….it’s an unusual habit….but it comes without doubt…..that in my crowd of various females….it is she…that stands out….maybe she’s that damn special….or she’s the only one I’m looking for……before…..I would have said no…..but all of a sudden….I’m not so sure….a new state of confusion….yet….confusion I don’t mind….it’s just a déjà vu…of a déjà vu….that will all pass in time….don’t really wanna call her a fan of mine….so that word I won’t say….I’d rather say she’s my CeCe…..my Butta….my Parkay….and she would rather say….I’m her Goonz…or her Syn….and I don’t think that she was prepared….for the spell that she’s now in….which is the reason I think she’s fallen….not for me…but for Syncere….but he….is a part of me…which makes it all-the-more weird…I don’t know if it’s a game….or if she feels the same…..or is she just infatuated….with Syncere…as a name…..I’ve sought every possibility…..but I still can’t see….so I’ma just add every part…and sum it up…with me….cause it’s too much to wonder….but whatever the case….it’s become that much more hard….for me to look her in her face….cause it’s something I didn’t realize…until after it occurred….she’s not the only one infatuated…..Syn is also a fan of hers - Syncere

Dedicated to: Butta